February the second

by jhon baker

I am captivated by my own world and have nothing to really say about it. There are so many typos in the sentence that this one is replacing that I’m not bothering with the original. My coffee needs a filler and I am waiting for my turn to practice my instrument. My son first practices his as his future involves these things and only my past does. I have written a single poem this year and last year by this time I was up to around 28 or so.

I am staring at this black piece of paper

with four poems waiting to be written;

drinking coffee but

wonting for something else entirely.

my ears are dirty with grime

and later I’ll shower.

right now I am not adjacent to godliness

but God doesn’t drink coffee

or smoke endless cigarettes turning on the next line.

– Hoc Scripsi

I am waiting for something to say that I haven’t already said better for fear of repeating myself but maybe that it all I need to do – repeat myself better or worse and watch trains rumble by while I drink fresher coffee served by baristas that long to do something different – even if it as meaningless as what they perceive they do now. It’s palpable. the wont.

I am trying to quit but running out now to smoke another instead of type type type bang bang bang on the MacBook with the loose key. It is nearing time for a new or newer laptop and I cannot decide if laptop or tablet or nothing at all and force myself to travel down to my office where the desktop is and write there – adjacent to the IBM Selectric III and Buddha.

 

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3 Comments to “February the second”

  1. I have the same problem of not wanting to repeat myself and write zip. Hate most of my ideas also they make me roll my eyes. The thing is I just probaly much like you need to repeat myself to just get back in the habit and getting the creative juices flowing

    • It’s strange – I am normally going nuts through this kind of creative drought but I’ve been strangely comfortable with it. Maybe a new era is on it’s way or something like that. I’ve been mostly involved in learning new music, mostly on trumpet, and feeling out where this newer venture is taking me which is why I am probably okay with the lack of new work. Best of luck to both of us though!

  2. Thank you my friend, I am proud to be able to read the writing on your article!

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